5:26 pm | Thursday, January 10, 2008
Where have you been? How have you been? Was it a beautiful day for you ? Did the flowers wither within the telling of springtime ringing in your thoughts? Cos' mine did. Mine withered and died as i walked through the streets in silence , head so heavy with thought , i concluded nothing could be as beautiful as when i'm with you. This world has never been uglier. I have so much to talk about , so don't go away yet.It's just that i've missed you.. You know, the sun misses the rain, winter misses summer , the pram misses a slope , and yes, i miss you. The truth is, i wasn't always blind to what you did for me, perhaps some sort of myopia had to do with this. I didn't see further enough before passing my judgements even before you could reach out to your shadows under the street lamps when you walk me home. I did it quick enough to shut you up, i was too quick to judge. You strut with your feet stomping on your pride whenever it came to this but now, i can only look at myself in disdain for disregarding every bit of pride you threw off for me.You offered me so much more than i could ask for, and the chaos in this melancholy at this moment in time is that it is almost too late to accept what was given. I took nothing of what you offered , instead only demanding what you could never give. These are words of emotions. Mere words and you deserve so much more than what my words can bring to you overtime. Now you seek solitude and closure. Because i didn't bring the right things to you when i had the chances to , when i had the time and ability to. I was just stubborn against my will . Now, i'm fighting the nights harder than before for it is true, they have never gotten this lonely in the longest time. Sometimes, the pang of guilt and realisation only comes when you lose everything that you ever had. You regret more than you admit every once in your life and so, let this be the case.
-- sue ann
I miss Khai so much :'( ..but he moved on already.
